Today is the first day that I quit smoking. The first hour. I took my ashtrays and threw them in the trash breaking them apart. I took my lighters and put them in the trash.

I’m scared, I’m nervous. I’m excited. I’m scared I’ll fail this time. I want to quit so bad it’s so hard because the body tells me to keep smoking! I’m telling it no. It won’t be easy. It’s the hardest thing I’ll prob ever do in my life. I got the gum and it taste rather yummy really. I put the gum by my coffee pot. A pack of the smokers gum by my desk. And one in the bathroom. I just know I can do this. I’m a very strong female.  I will take it one day at a time that’s all one can really do when it comes to smoking. I’m going this weekend to start a new yoga class. The past few months I been changing my diet and eating very healthy. I’m a tiny girl so I don’t want to gain weight from quiting lol. But the main object is to quit even if it causes me to put on 3-5 pounds!